“Farewell” My Sweet Girl - Love Mom!

My Sweet Girl,

In loving you, I experienced God.

Not the God for everyone that sits on high in an unreachable sky, but the God of my soul.

The God just for me, that sees the best in me.

The God that blessed me to raise you, but because of you somehow managed to raise me.

Through you, I learned to love differently, truly, authentically... beyond me.

You taught me to live life vivaciously, but not to take it too seriously.

I am FOREVER changed, undoubtedly.

By your birth, life, and now transition.

I am beyond words because there are not any to define what this world could not any longer confine.

My heart aches for more time.

Searching hither and thither for a peace that I petition the heavens ...praying desperately that I find.

You are the heart outside of my chest.

How do I lay you to rest... when the parts of me... even the glued together fractured ones that I gave as love's sacrifice, my best... still did not circumvent this test.

The dreams I have for you did not go with you.

I will use them as best I can to go on.

Never did I imagine doing life without you.

I do not know how. I am not sure that I can ever learn.

As long as God wakes me up, I will grapple and claw through.

Giving my best attempt to continue to model what I gave my all to teach you.

Please do what you have always done...be my sunshine, wind, and strength so I find a way to make it through.

Talk to God for me. Let Him know that

I have always needed Him but I do for real now... because your "leaving" me is damn near breaking me.

Advocate for me... fight for me...as I try now to live for you and me.

Please I ask, beggingly and humbly, that you be with me...

Giving me a glimmer of hope as I struggle for a semblance of normalcy.

FOREVER is how long I will treasure you.

As I look to the hills from whence cometh my help, shine your light just for me.

I am not operating selfishly but needing you desperately.

Your sunset has left my world and the world at large a little darker.

I'll work to accept that your soul needed more landscape... unlimited space.

You definitely earned your wings, crown and seat at the right hand of The Father.

I cannot and will not ever say goodbye to you.

Just remember infinitely, no one will ever love you more than I do.

I will blow kisses to you and look for you always... in this life and the next.

Give me the joy of your smile when the pain of you no longer being here tempts me to have regrets and "forget".

Princess, sweet girl, Snooty, and my Judy are my names for you...

I will add one more, my guardian angel.

Angel has always suited you but now all the more as you have now dawned and walked through heaven's door.

One last thing I desire to implore, wear your heavenly garments well as an upgrade for the physical body you wore.

They are the well-deserved reward for all the "wear and tear" you bore.

Seraphim and cherubim business is now your agenda, not the toils and snares of this world anymore.

Love,

Mom (Brooke Dyett)